Goodbye Year 2007

At last, it's the last day of 2007....How fast time passes by and never comes back. This is the time when people start to recall everything that they have done this year, and all memories will be coming back to you.What big events had happened during the year? What have you done? Is this a productive year? Had everything gone well for the whole year? And the questions continue...

For certain people, they might feel sort of nostalgic, as they know that the year 2007 will be ending today, and there will be no more year 2007. The time, the moments, the hours, the events are all memories now. You feel down because good times are all gone, whereas bad moments stay as sad memories. And perhaps, knowing the fact that how fast time passes and never comes back, we all will learn to cherish the presence, for it will become the past as time goes by. Just like reading a book, only at the end that you will know and learn the whole truth, the themes, the values and today is the end of year 2007, you have gotten all the 'memories'. They are either being kept in a book in the form of writings, in home-made movies, in pictures, or simply just in your brain. And all these memories have their own meanings and they bring you different feelings, happy or sorrow.

While you are feeling low for the end of 2007, without realizing, it's a new year tomorrow. To think from a point of view, we all should start making plans for the future - year 2008. Set up your mind, goals, objectives, targets and etc etc. If you are feeling regret and sad because of something you have missed or done wrong, then this new coming year means a new hope, a new beginning, a new chance. Grasp the presence, and make sure you know what you want. Perhaps it's a tough road ahead, but with enough faith, i guess we all can make it and who knows, the rainbow will soon appear.

After midnight, there will be no more year 2007, but that doesn't mean there will be no more future. We still have our families, we still have our loved ones, we still have each other, we still have our lives, our breaths and together with the hope of a better tomorrow, life continues...

Goodbye year 2007...

月牙湾 Yue Ya Wan (Moon Crest Bay)

月牙湾 Moon Crest Bay
歌手：f.i.r. 专辑：爱.歌姬

敦煌古墓的沙粒 The sand at the magnificent tomb,
带着我们的际遇 Having our moments and everything we had gone through,
我从半路看回去 From half way I looked back,
这秦关漫漫好蜿踞 This Qin gateway * is so rough and sinuous,
梦想穿过了西域 Dreams fly pass through the West region,
包含了多少的缠意 Having so much meaning.

爱情像一本游记 Love is like a journal,
我会找寻它的密语 I will look for its secret codes,
看..月牙湾下的泪光 Look…tears on the Moon Crest Bay,
在丝路之上被遗忘 Being forgotten on the Silk road,
是谁的心啊孤单的留下 Whose heart is this, being left lonely here,
他还好吗我多想爱他 Is he still all right, how much I wanna to love him,
那永恒的泪那一句话 That eternal tears; that sole speech,
也许可能蒸发 Probably will be evaporated.
是谁的爱啊又为谁降下 Whose love is this, and for who it rains down?
轻声呼唤就让我融化 Just summon in soft voice is able to melt me down,
那一滴雨水演化成我翅膀 That drop of rain changes and becomes my wings,
向着我爱的人追吧 Chasing towards my lover.

梦想穿过了西域 Dreams fly pass through the West region,
包含了多少的缠意 Having so much meaning.
爱情像一本游记 Love is like a journal,
我会找寻它的密语 I will look for its secret codes,
看..月牙湾下的泪光 Look…tears on the Moon Crest Bay,
在丝路之上被遗忘 Being forgotten on the Silk road,
是谁的心啊孤单的留下 Whose heart is this, being left lonely here,
他还好吗我多想爱他 Is he still all right, how much I wanna to love him,
那永恒的泪那一句话 That eternal tears; that sole speech,
也许可能蒸发 Probably will be evaporated.
是谁的爱啊又为谁降下 Whose love is this, and for who it rains down?
轻声呼唤就让我融化 Just summon in soft voice is able to melt me down,
那一滴雨水演化成我翅膀 That drop of rain changes and becomes my wings,
向着我爱的人追吧 Chasing towards my lover.

是谁的心啊孤单的留下 Whose heart is this, being left lonely here,
他还好吗我多想爱他 Is he still all right, how much I wanna to love him,
那永恒的泪那一句话 That eternal tears; that sole speech,
也许可能蒸发 Probably will be evaporated.
是谁的爱啊又为谁降下 Whose love is this, and for who it rains down?
轻声呼唤就让我融化 Just summon in soft voice is able to melt me down,
那一滴雨水演化成我翅膀 That drop of rain changes and becomes my wings,
向着我爱的人追吧 Chasing towards my lover…

This is a new song, just out by a Taiwan group called F.I.R. At first, don't really find anything special about the song, but as i listen more and more, i am getting to like the song more and more. One of the main reasons is because they use Chinese traditional music instruments to play with, and the lyrics is so romantic, thus creating a song that is so smooth when heard. Fill with the beauty of the Oriental..Love it.

The Missing Part

It's been a week of holidays, and basically just stay at home and do nothing, though i did have my own quality and happy time for 2 days. Now back at hometown again, i have nothing to do, except helping mother around with cookings and house chores. Boring, and feel sort of lost since i don't have anything to do, nor a short-term goal. So, i really want to read some books, to gain some knowledge as well as for some entertainment, after all, reading is full of fun too, not just games. Read back some books which i have read long time ago, such as Three Kingdoms (Chinese Classical novel which based on true history) or maybe go online look for manga to read and some anime to watch to fill up the time. For people like me, these are really fun and enjoyable enough, to just lie down and read, or just watch some anime, but somehow something is missing there which is like the missing piece of of a map. I guess i know what am i missing, and what i really need to make it a pleasurable holidays...

And i don't think i will let go off the hand...

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A Belief, A Hope, A Dream : It's Your Love

Everything's still that bad, and i have been trying my best to put back all the pieces, and make things all right again, as it used too. I admitted that i have been crying for days, but somehow whenever i fall asleep, the dream is always there, a probably 'never-come-true' dream of mine. Smiles, kisses, huggings, loving, caring, understanding...etc etc. Somehow it's still there, and i wonder myself, what does it indicate me? Why i tried so hard on insisting? Why i can't let it go? What happened to me? What spell i am under? I really don't know, so i slept early these few days, after shedding some tears , so that i can find the answer inside the dream again...

Finally, after a long dream, i reached to the answer for all the questions i have been thinking, i opened my eyes, and i smiled.

It's your love...

Dancin' in the dark
Middle of the night
Takin' your heart
Holdin' it tight
Emotional touch
Touchin' my skin
Askin' you to do
What you've been doin'
All over again
Oh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
I've just gotta let you know
What it is that won't let me go

(Chorus)
It's your love
Just does somethin' to me
Sends a shock right through me
Can't get enough
So if you wonder
About the spell I'm under
It's your love

Better than I was
More than I am
All of that happened
By takin' your hand
Who I am now
Is who I've wanted to be
Now that we're together
Stronger than ever, happy and free
Oh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
And if you ask me why I'll change
All I gotta do is say your sweet name

(Repeat chorus)

The End Of World...

The storm hasn't stopped since my birthday that day, and i am sure that this month is the worst month ever in my life. Days are getting darker and darker as time passed by, and the pain is getting more and more unbearable. I tried to be strong, i tried not to cry, but still the tears will not stop coming down off my cheeks. It's really embarrasing for a man to cry, but i did cry and that's the truth. It's believed that tear has magical power, that it's able to take away one's sadness, but somehow it didn't work this time, even after i have cried lots of times...

Woke up very early this morning, my eyes are still red, and i still can find the tears are still there, and i am trying my best to hold it. Washed my face, wishing i can wash away the sign of tears, but it's still there. I looked at myself in front of the mirror, i see inside my own eyes, and i couldn't find a soul there. I put my hand in front of my chest, tried to feel my heart, but there's nothing there. The only thing is the body, without any soul or heart. I know where they have been...

Regret and sad, i started to hate myself for failing everyone. I kept telling myself to endure, because they said, after the rain, the sun will come out soon. And i kept telling myself, to keep my strength and faith, that this is just a test. I don't know whether it helps, i only know that i want to be there. I have often live in darkness, stretching my hands looking for a light, and now that i found it, just when i wanna to grab it and hold it tight, it started to slip through my fingers...

Maybe, maybe this is how it feels, the end of world...

A Test In Life...

Sometimes in life, we will just have to learn, either in a cruel way or kind one, that we have to be independent, be strong and live your life the way you want it, with or without the supports of your family or friends. I used to believe that the deciding factors are always yourselves, you always have choices in your life and yes, in most of the cases. But now i learnt that sometimes, you just don't have rights in certain things regarding your life, it's all up to others. Now the test has come, and there's no other way to hide now, you can only deal with it bravely. You can run, but you can't hide, either way it's coming. To believe in yourselves, or to follow the others? It's time for me to choose...

'I fell down badly and totally helpless, so now i am gathering all my strength to stand up and fight again...'

Season's Greetings

It’s already mid of December, and it means that Christmas is just around the corner. Everywhere you go, the Christmas atmosphere is there. Christmas trees here and there on the street, and lighting decorations all along the road. Supposedly , I should be sending greeting cards to all my friends who are Christian, my ex-classmates during secondary school and my college friends, even though I am not Christian, but I guess that doesn’t mean I don’t have to send any greeting card for Christmas. However, for a lazy bug like me, stepping out of my room for food sometimes can be considered a tedious work for me and now sending greeting cards? Too much for me, I guess. So I decided to wish everyone through my blog (though most of them don’t even know the existence of my blog). It will be much simpler and easier, no? (Haha)

So, to all my friends, my family, my loved one and anyone who is reading my blog now, I wish you all Merry Christmas and Happy New Year ~ ~ ~ !

Below is the greeting card (pictures) and my wishes for you all :

To :
My friends, my family, my loved one, and anyone who is reading now,

May all the wishes warm up your heart and fill your days with joys and happiness.

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year.


Yours sincerely,
Yett

Myspace Chistmas Graphics

It's Beautiful...

It's been raining for days now, and i am here at hometown. Woke up extra early today, because if i don't, there will be no breakfast for me, sort of like a 'family tradition'. The morning is extra cold, with the rain and wind keep coming. Walked outside the house, i looked up to the sky, it's moody with blue greyish colour, and far distance there's cloud floating. The sun hasn't appeared yet, or maybe it already has appeared, just that it's hiding behind the cloud. I followed my grandpa to nearby Indian stall for breakfast. Sitting inside the small truck, I can see the young oil palm trees located nearby my house. Green and fresh they looked, and from the open window, the fresh leaf aroma can be smelled as the breeze blowing towards me while my grandpa drove us to the stall.

Lousy it may seem, but the food is delicious in the Indian stall. It's an open-air stall with no walls nor door, located just in front of the oil palm tree estate. My grandpa loves to come here for breakfast, i wonder if it's because of the food or just because he is fond of this kind of 'nature-close' environment. After ordering 'nasi lemak' , tea and coffee , we sat down and wait. The rain still continues, not very heavy though and from our seat, we can enjoy the beautiful scenary of the estate. And behind the trees, high mountains are slightly visible with the thick white fog covering them, as if they were the celestial zone...

After finishing our breakfast, we went back immediately. I always enjoy looking at the rubber tree estate in front of our house. Rows of tree with green leaves and the rain today makes them look extra beautiful and it's where you can get the best oxygen supply. It makes you healtier and happier for every breath you inspire in, magical isn't it? I bet people who have never been living in the rural area will never understand the 'beauty' of this kind of place. Every morning after people living in stone jungle wake up, all they can hear is the honing of cars and breath in the 'fresh' exhaust fumes from the cars while i am listening to the songs of the early birds together with the rhyme of rain, and inspire in the best air ever. I just love this place.

Oh, it's beautiful...

Happy Birthday : 19th Birthday

Finally, the clock struck 12, and i am officially 19 years old now. I woke up pretty early the day before, and it's raining again, probably it's the birth of a dragon. There are friends who already wished me 'happy birthday' on the 6th of December. Some through sms, some through internet and i was really happy. I always thought that i don't make much impression during my college time, so most probably my friends wouldn't remember about my birthday, and that i am just like a shadow, unnoticeable. So, i thought this year birthday will be just like any other days, nothing special. To my surprise, i had gotten wishes more than i imagined. A close friend of mine during college time had even wished me happy birthday 4 days earlier. Actually he mistaken about the date, haha, but still the wish made my day brighter. Then yesterday, my ex-housemate had also wished me through msn, which made me felt so happy too, at least i know they still remember me.

So, the night had a surprise for me as well. My housemates decided to go out for a dinner with me, though there are only 3 of us. I never knew that they actually remember as well, after all, i don't remember theirs (which make me feel so bad). So, we went out to a fancy restaurant, for some western food and the food are really good. We ordered English Traditional Herbs Lamb Chop (not for me), Millan Style Fried Chicken, Fish Chips And French Fries. Enjoyed ourselves, and i was really happy, perhaps knowing that my birthday wasn't really going to turn out to be a boring and lonely day.

Now the clock struck 12, and there are people starting to sms me through phone, wishing me happy birthday. They did, remember me after almost 2 years, friends from secondary school. Thought that they will not remember, after all, i couldn't remember theirs too (uhh, i guess i am really such a lousy friend). Not only that, my housemates had already bought a small piece of cake, just one small piece, with one candle on it, knocking my door and gave it to me. I was already feeling shy and still there was 'Happy Birthday' song sang by them with a guitar, i couldn't feel more awkward than this. But deep inside, i am really happy somehow. So, we took some pictures, after all, it might be the last chance we can take photo together, since i am leaving soon. Had some good time playing with camera and taking some funny and stupid photos, well just for fun. Probably it might be the last time...

So, at about 5 am at dawn, i got a phone call as well, wished me happy birthday, which made me really happy too, even if it's just a birthday wish. Then the morning i have got to go back hometown, and again the morning is accompany with rain as well. Got my hair all wet only finally got into the bus and soon, i am here at hometown. At least the weather has gone better, and the sun has finally come out. Everyone is smilling, and i guess that's the best present from them to me.

And then, everything's just like normal, nothing special. Feel sort of missing something or someone. But overall, it's a good day. Compared to last year, it was a terrible day, rainy day and had to travel, got scolded by taxi driver, alone and etc etc. Previous last year, i was in graduation trip with friends and celebrated together. And it's always raining during my birthday, i wonder why...

It's rainy day, cold day and my birthday...

Last Few Days Of 18

Emmm…it’s my last few days before officially turn 19, so which means I will have only few days to stay 18. Strange feelings though, maybe knowing I am getting older and that will mean more responsibilities to bear with, as a man, not a boy anymore. Pieces of memories keep flashing through everyday for the last few weeks, probably knowing myself turning 19 soon, so the brain wants to do some ‘cleaning of memories’. Didn’t realized it myself before last week, when others told me it’s already end of November. Oh…time passes so fast.

Lots of things happened during my 18, I guess. Lots of memories, some sweet, some sour, some bitter, some spicy…etc etc. Well, I guess that’s life, rich in tastes. Can’t really describe the feelings now, hard to explain. Haha, at least I know I am growing up as a man soon, and should learn to be gentleman . Last few days, should try to cherish the left time enjoying being 18, time never come back after all. But most probably will be trapping inside this ‘nest’ of mine , study, play some computer games, sleep and eat. And to think carefully, that’s actually enjoyable enough, bet lots of people miss those lazy days and to have such life routine is probably a blessing for them. So, my last few days, few more pages of ‘memories’ to be added inside the ‘memories of 18’ book, should be good memories then…

And hence, another year is yet to begin soon…

(P/S: since i can't really describe my feelings now, so i put a music that sort of represent my feelings now...)

Have I Told You Lately?

(Turn this on before you read, and listen to this song while reading...)


Today I happened to listen to an old song while sitting in car listening to radio. A song that reminds me of the one I love, and somehow don’t know why, probably because of the feeling of missing, or because of the depth of love, it made me feel so much that I lose concentration in everything. Felt as I am sick without the presence, the smiles, the face… ‘Have I told you lately that I love you?...’ as the song went on, the feeling got deeper and deeper, it was like tomorrow’s the end of world, and that I will not die in peace if I couldn’t be there at that moment, and to tell just three simple words …I love you.

Ya…have I told you lately that I love you? I started to think, have I? No, I guess it’s been quite a time since I mentioned that three words. I bet most of the people have also forgotten about that three very easy words, for those who are married, or in a serious long-term relationship, or family members…Hmm, it’s not something strange that people will tend to forget these words, after all, as this fast-changing world moving everyday, life becomes busy and it’s understandable that with the hectic lifestyle, people can forget these words easily. Besides, to have the one with you everyday, or maybe knowing his/her love is always there, around you, thus making you feel that ‘the love’ has become something ‘normal’, and hence you can’t really notice them, or at least appreciate them. Well, if only you know that how hard is it to find the one that can love you so much and you love so much, or if only you know the feeling of regret after you lost them, then probably every morning you will start saying these three words to them, to tell them how lucky you are, how happy you are, or how much you love him/her…

Of course, these three words might look simple and easy, how many alphabets? Eight only…but the significant part about this is that, it has to come from your heart, as if you were sending your heart to him/her and let him/her feel your heart pounding that survives on his/her love. It’s not something like you can say to everyone, or something that you say just to please your partner, it can’t be fake and has to be sincere. So, I always believe that ‘I love you’ is not to be conveyed simply in writing or speech, but to be showed in actions and to give fully your heart for him/her to feel how much you love him/her and then that’s how both of your hearts get linked together and feel the true love. I guess this explain why love always being represented in ‘red heart shape, with an arrow’, because love is all about your heart feeling and the connection. It follows your heart, not your brain to tell you what to do.

For me, ‘I love you’ can be romantic enough. I never judge whether a place or atmosphere is romantic or not by how luxurious, or how many roses, or how many candles there. People tend to see ‘romantic’ with their eyes, but me on the other hand, prefer to feel with my heart, as I believe it’s what ‘romantic’ means. It can be anywhere, anything, anytime; when you are sick, a hot soup delivered to you by him/her , or when you are mad and out of mood, a simple smiles and comforting hands of him/her touching and hugging you, or maybe even a dinner prepared by him/her for you…Those are all romantic enough, probably most people won’t understand why, I guess when you use your heart to ‘see’ them, then you will know and ‘feel’ them too, including the love…

So, why not start to think about ‘giving’ your heart that ‘contains’ the sincere and strong feeling of ‘I love you’ to your beloved ones at this moment right away? Let him/her feel that you do, love him/her very much…