Sweet Sensation

Apparently this weekend i have 4 days holidays, since today is Malaysia National Day, so i went back to hometown. Back in hometown, basically i have nothing to do at all, except to eat,play and sleep. So, talking about eating, yesterday my mom was giving me some chocolate (toblerone), bought by my sister. At first, i didn't really wanna to eat at that time, but then after i tried, it was so good,so sweet and result? Now i frequently open the fridge to look for more chocolate. And, on that night as well, my brother who was coming back to hometown as well from work, had also bought some sweet cakes. Hot chocolate cakes and cheese cakes, from Secret Recipe. After i had been fed on the cakes, my appetite suddenly fully awake and ask for more sweet cakes, sweet chocolate, and anything sweet. Emmm, it was so good that i started to look for sweet food and was thinking of eating more and more.

It's odd that all of the sudden, my interest towards sweet food raises so high. Well, we all know that if one eat lots of sweet food, he or she will gain lots of weight in no time at all. Thus, is this strange ''phenomena'' is indicating that it's time for me to gain weight? My brain probably has started giving chemical instructions to all my body cells - It's time for me to grow more, and time to gain weight. That might be a possible explaination to this fancy towards sweet food. Probably there are other explainations as well, maybe i am too bored and that i found that eating sweet things actually makes me become more happy.

Therefore, this change has caused me to make plan like to go to cake shops and engulf all the cakes there until i am contented. Of course, eating alone will be too boring, so i decided to go with the one i love, and together, enjoy the satisfying sensation of sweet things. I think it will be fanstastic...

So, bet i am a sweet-freak now. Oh well, what has happened to me? Pretty puss, feeling of bored, missing badly of my lover, lonely, and now sweet food??? Hahaha, what is next, i wonder...

Different

These few days, i have been feeling bored and lonely. I have quit my orientation thing, and was glad about it actually. While i was alone trapped in my room at my condominium, feeling sad and lonely, others were happily returned from the orientation programmes prepared by the seniors. Personally I don’t like the orientation in this university, too childish, too ridiculous and too stupid.So, i don't really feel very bad as i choose myself, to quit this whole idiotic orientation. It's really odd that for people at my age to hate playing with water, ice or cheer around and play with paints. Normally they will think that the games are cool, and extremely fun, but apparently i found the activities are boring and silly. Hence, i come up with 2 ideas (since i have lots of free time trapping myself in my room), either i am a teenager who has the mind of a mature adult, or i have mental problem.

Everyone seems to be so happy and enthusiastic about life in this university whereas i am feeling moody and listless. Nothing about the life in this university really excites me, the only feeling that embraced me is the feeling of boring. I really wonder what has happened to me, why i will feel like that? Why i am not like the others?

Maybe i need some time to really get up, get ready and get going with my life, maybe i shouldn't look at the life here as so dark, instead look it from the other point of view and make it fun, or maybe i am just different...

The Anniversary (1) - The King And I

Today was our anniversary, and tonight special was tickets to the famous musical theater - The King And I (script based on a book called Anna And The King Of Siam written by Margaret Landon), which of course was live and played on stage. I have never been to,nor watched a live musical show in theater before, so it was my first time (haha, ''first time'' happened again on this day). I was really anticipating the show, as i have never watched this musical before as well. Was very exciting, not only because of this whole show thing, but because we will be going out tonight, enjoying the time being together and recalling all the memories, all the time we had been together.

So, we dressed nicely, we went out early after waking up from a nap. Arrived at the theater at Esplanade at about 6.45, got our tickets, we went to dinner. Sitting face to face, i can see the smiles, and the face clearly, how much i had wanted to kiss the lips....After paying, we went into the theater.

The show started at 8 pm , and half of the seats were full even on this second last day of the play in Singapore. Sitting just right in front of the stage, i can watch clearly. The stage was beautiful, decorated with the Thai - designed curtains.The seat was comfortable and before i knew it, the show had started.

Fanstastic and amusing...as the show continued, i was so attracted to it that i was moving my head along with the music sung. The story was about the Thai King who hired a English women teacher to teach his sons and daughters in the palace, and how the King had fallen for the British lady. The story has lots of jokes, and it was really funny. The music part was fun too, it has lots of happy and cheerful songs, which of course can arouse the feeling of dancing, for example like ''Shall We Dance'' , ''I Whistle A Happy Tune'', '' Getting To Know You'' and etc etc etc ( lol ). I really had a good time enjoying the play, never had imagined that it will be that good. Personally, i dare to say that the play is so good that everyone should watch it.

The whole night was almost perfect, I had a great time. And actually was pretty shocked that the ticket costs 137 Singapore dollar each, was very touched and happy as well, not only because of the money value, the main reason is that i was gifted a beautiful moment, a sweet memory, which is priceless, and stayed with me forever. The only thing that i had regretted is that i couldn't give a deep,sweet kiss at the moment, nor able to hold the hands, fingers to fingers to show how happy and touched am i , and that i will cherish it....

As long as this brain works, as long as my breath continues, I will always keep the memory with me...always.

The Anniversary (2) - The Bottle Of Love

So, i have gotten a sweet memory as my present for the anniversary, and now my present for my love one - a small bottle. Actually to be honest, i really feel ashamed when i know the price of the memory (137 Sing dollar), and compared to my bottle, it's only cost few ringgit Malaysia . The bottle itself is not empty though, it contained some decoration items, a few very small pieces of scrolls and the lavendar potpouri. The bottle is so small that it can be put inside pocket and take along whenever one go.

Now, why i have choosen giving a bottle? Like i said, it contained small scrolls, which 2 of them , i already wrote something on them, and everything i wrote there, are nothing but the most honest and deepest feelings of my heart, and which i hope to seal them in this small bottle. There are other empty scrolls, which i prepared them inside the bottle, and were there for my love one to write down any feelings that come from the heart and seal them inside. Probably it's insane to think that feelings are able to be sealed, to be preserved from being forgotten as time pass by, but i just wish that, maybe one day when we both are lonely, by just opening the bottle, the fresh fragrant smell of lavendar that diffuses out together with all the small pieces of scrolls which have lots of touching writings that are able to remind us that we are not alone, and that no matter how far apart we are, but the hearts are linked close together by love and we are always being cared and loved by each other. So, it's not really a present that is expensive in money value, but it depends on how one think of the meaning behind this very small bottle. Almost same as the present i received - a sweet memory (except that it's really an expensive present), and the real value of this memory depends on how much i cherish it, which of course for me, it's priceless.

So, this night i had given this bottle to my lover, with the price of the bottle still sticked under the bottle without my notice...I had explained the meaning of this bottle when we had our dinner, and was hoping that this bottle will really become the magic bottle of love. There are hopes, wishes and dreams in this bottle too when i handled this present out. Tonight has been a wonderful night for me, touched and happy, i hope the kiss last longer and we hold each other longer that night.

It's said that there's no magic in this world, and it only exists on story books, but i believe that there is magic, and it's the world most powerful spell - love...and please, let it lasts forever between us....

Leaving And Starting

Have been packing all this morning, bags and luggages are all full of clothes. I packed all my T-shirts , pants and so on , including the unmatched pair of socks with different colours and designs which i had been wearing for almost half a year without being noticed by others, haha. Other than clothes, i have got to prepare all the daily necessities, such as tooth brush, tooth paste, shampoo, and etc. Everything is being dragged out from the store (since all of the things were stored there last time after moving back from my previous apartment) and put on the floor in the living room. Counting and checking every single item so as not to miss out anything that is essential.

Actually mother has been nagging since yesterday, kept telling me that i should have packed everything by last night so that i won't have to rush and now busy looking for this underwear, or for that pant. As a result , i need to work all this morning and found myself really tired, not only from the packing work but as well as the nagging from mother. Lots of things needed to be brought, so i have been working from early morning until now, and still there are boxes missing, which contain my papers. Overall, almost everything is prepared, and ready to move.

It's a strange that actually i don't really feel the anticipation of a new life - life in university. Maybe knowing the possibility of dropping out and move to Monash University hinted me that i won't be staying long in IMU, and thus don't really have to settle down there , neither mentally nor physically. I will probably just be there for about half a year, staying in the new apartment , and perhaps will just after getting used to the life, i might have to move again. Therefore, honestly speaking, i don't really have the feelings of looking forward, looking into the future as a medical students in IMU and automatically feelings of bored is taking over the weather in my heart. I think maybe i am not ready yet...

I guess i really have to at least settle down my mind and get back to books and notes after this about 2 months long holidays. Gained lots of experiences and growed up more, i think . And sooner than i thought, i might be wearing the unmatched pair of sock without being noticed and again, sitting on the chair listening to lectures...

Life in university begins...

Chinese Medicine VS Modern Medicine

I have been sick for 2 days, and today finally i have fully recovered.It was actually just a cold at first which then turned into high fever.But it wasn't really that pleasant, i was so sick that my body temperature reached 38.2`celcius even after i had consumed paracetamol.At first, i thought i can handle it myself, eat some paracetamol , drink water and rest, and i will be fine, however as my illness went even worse , finally i had no choice but to visit the doctor and got some fever pills and antibiotics.

My condition didn't go well even after i took the pills and here comes an alternative to my illness -Chinese medicine, recommended by my family members.Thus, i took a bottle of liquid (which basically are paracetamol as well, but mixed with chloroform as preservative and ethanol), and in just less than 30 minutes, i was sweating so much that my temperature went down immediately.Not only that , i felt much better in the next few hours.Since the result was so encouraging, i continued with Chinese medicine later at night but it was different one.After eating my dinner (which is mee soup), i drank a full cup of greenish drink (called Chu Mao Dan) made from a type of grass found commonly beside the road.It's believed that it can help in lower down the body temperature. Of course, Chinese medicine's taste isn't really pleasant, the drink has the smell and taste of wild grass, and it's advisable to add few spoons of honey to mix with it as to make it ''drinkable'' or '' sweeter'' and besides, honey also has this medicinal value.At last, thanks to this prescription, i got back my health in the second day, except with additional sore throat.

Frankly speaking, i have never really believe in Chinese medicine, because they never have a scientific explaination which as for a science student like me,i prefer to know what am i consuming or at least to know how it works. However, after this time, it seems like Chinese medicine undoubtedly did have it's value and perhaps much better in certain illness compared to Modern medicine.Chinese medicine is more based on the effects of herbs, drinks, food, the combinations and etc on our body. It's more like a belief except that they really work out. Modern medicine on the other hand, is based on scientific explainations, in term of bio-molecular functions of the molecules of the pills and how they react on the cells in our body. Of course, not to say that Chinese medicine doesn't have their explainations. And usually their explaination is more on the nature of certain herbs and how they affect our body ''chi'' and our health. And because of this as well, Chinese medicine usually will have less side-effect compared to Modern medicine as usually they are obtained naturally.

Thus, from my personal point of view, i believe that both these medicinal branches - Chinese and Modern medicine are useful and it's depend on us to use them wisely.Certain diseases, require the knowledge of Modern medicine which help to identify the cause of the disease, and ways to cure it whereas in some illness, Chinese medicine comes to play which prove to be useful. Therefore, it's the best to have knowledge of both sides and certainly it will come in handy when one needs them.

Touched

It's Sunday night , i stayed at home while my family went out for dinner. Thanks to the cold i got now, and it's getting worse as the fever is coming as well.Doing nothing, i listened to the new song i just downloaded, with my constant sneezing kept interrupting the pleasure of enjoying the music.Luckily, it stopped for a while now after taking pills from my mom.

It's raining outside tonight,the sound of the droplets of rain keep falling and hitting the windows,together with the song i am listening miraculously mix harmoniously,creating a strange feeling inside me.I am floating in the music played.It's a beautiful song but too soft that it makes me miss my love one so much that it hurts for the separation by distance.I miss the finely-carved face,the sweet smiles,the warm voice...And it's at this moment, i got a message.It warms me up totally,simple but full with love and care.I feel so much love,so much care,it's the best remedy for my conditions now.I replied immediately,trying to write out all the feelings emerge inside me,but it seemed like it's more than words...I can't really find a way to describe how i feel.My heart and soul are there,already fly miles away,crossing the country's border, only left with the empty shell here. If only i can teleport there, i will be there for sure, to tell how i feel,to show all the love....

It's a strange perhaps one will think,as it's only a short message,but for me, it contained unlimited love and care.For a moment, i feel there's an invisible arms holding around me from the back, hug me so tight that tears emerged out involuntary ,i am touched, i am loved.....

Though i am little bit sick now, i have never felt so good before.It's more than i can ask for.I guess today has really been my lucky day, lots of good news.If falling sick can let me get all these, i prefer to sick everyday then....

It's a raining night, with musics floating in the air, and my soul is there, hugging and sleeping on the bed i am so used to....

Results Finally Out

I have heard from my classmates that today is the release of the CIE (Cambridge International Examination) A-Level results,of course it's been almost 2-3 months after i finished my exams.I have been worried since few weeks ago,reasons? Because i know i did badly last time.So,this morning woke up with butterflies in my stomach,nervous and scared as i know soon i will have to face the reality,which might tell me that my results will be terrible and prepare to face the wrath and disappointment of everyone who has put high hopes on me.It's killing enough just to imagine about it as for me, the worst punishment i can get is the feeling of guilty.

Thus, as i expected, after the results has been released at 9am, friends started to call me and tell me that how many As they have got, and of course with the hope to know about my results too,though i haven't got the results.I was told that i can get the result by calling to the office.At first, i was really worried, and don't really feel like wanna to call, cause if possible,i wanna to avoid facing my results. However, at last i braved myself up, and decided to make the call.My heart was ready to jump out when the officer was confirming about my identity.But when she told me i got 4As, i just can't believe it myself.So, i asked again and again to make sure there's no mistake.And yes,no mistakes, i got 4As!!! I was really happy and glad.Thank God....

I told my family about this,and everyone was really happy and it was their happiness and satisfaction got from putting hopes in me which made me feel happy because at last i didn't disappoint them,after all they have spent quite a lot of money in my studies.Not only that, with this results, it seems like my future is not a dream anymore,at least i already succeeded in stepping my feet into the boat.Somehow i can see more pathways in front of me and in less than 1 hour, the happiness just disappeared like that. I started to feel little bit of gloomy.I wonder why,probably thinking of future which lies ahead makes me feel like that or maybe something else...

Anyway, now still feel worried as this is an unofficial results, though usually the results won't change. I guess at least today i can sleep better,haha.

Back

Finally,after about one month staying in Singapore, i finally back to my family in my small town.After a long journey in the train from Singapore to Seremban, i was very tired although i did sleep a little bit during the journey. It was a bad farewell, was rushing to the train station and barely made it.Couldn't really look at the face properly, nor give a warm hug to each other, then i had to rush to pass the immigration with all the items and bags.Feel regretted now that i didn't have enough time to hear the voice and remember them well and that i didn't touch the face before i depart.I guess after about one month staying there, i got so used to the voice and the face so much that when i have to leave, the heart shrunken and i felt sad.I know the feeling,it's the feeling of leaving the one you love...


Back to my family, they are as warm as before,still the same, the smiles and the welcome. They are really happy and talking continues.... Everyone looks the same, my mom has become a little fatter (i think), my brothers are as usual and my sister too.My grandpa still looked healthy which make me feel so relieve and glad. My dad is still the same, maybe the temper has gone down? I felt as if i have leave the house so long...Feel a bit odd,i bet maybe it's really has been a long time.

After the unpacking, i sat down in front of computer and start playing games,cause it helps me in reducing the feeling of missing. Played til very late and same as before, my grandpa woke up and started to call me to sleep,ya...just like last time.So,after a few calls, i finally went to bed. Lying on my bed, i don't feel as it's my bed, the small bed seems lack of something, or someone.Ignoring the feelings, i closed my eyes and slowly fell asleep.

This morning woke up really late due to not enough sleep yesterday night.After being called by my grandpa to go to breakfast, i got up and went outside. It's a beautiful morning.All my dogs looked cheerful and energetic. All of the sudden, i feel kind of missing them,it's been like almost 2 years before last time i played with them, after i went to study in college. I have forgotten, when i pulled their tails last time, when i disturbed them while they were sleeping, when i massage them....I used to dance with them, holding their front legs and made them walk with me.Their round eyes and their waving tails are the same, and some of them were even smiling at me.They are really cute.I guess after 2 years stepping out of the house, i lost part of me.I didn't chase the dogs anymore, i didn't shake their heads anymore, i didn't fart to their nose anymore...Though everything i did sounds very silly and cruel, but actually i was having fun with them and they have been my best friends ever.If not because of my family, i will have wanna to have them beside me while i sleep.All those memories...i was still a child that time.Don't know why,my eyes started to fill with tears...knowing how funny,innocent and ignorant was i...

I am back finally....

Barbarians And Frauds In Singapore

Well, as first i thought that my luck will come soon in this afternoon.But i can't believe that my luck has turned even worse than before. I just met the leader of the barbarian community in the whole world, or if not at least the leader in Singapore.The story goes like this...

I was supposed to talk to this guy (the barbarian) due to certain reasons, and that in the mid of our conversation, i have no idea wheather it's his intelligence problems or some misunderstandings, he bursted out with no reasons to get angry and started to scold me in any way he wanted to. With all the cursings and insults, non-stop yelling at me for at least 5 minutes. I ,for one moment, get so shocked and couldn't speak. I guess it must be his ''barking'' was too loud for me,that it stunned me for a while. For an advanced country like Singapore, to have this kind of barbarian live in this country is nothing more than a shame to Singapore,i dare to say.

I shall say, this barbarian who barks so loud, should really take a lesson on controlling in own temper, before next time when he met people who are strong and violent. Because i believe that he will be tossed and tortured if he dare to show his temper he just showed me to those people. And,i can't really deny that i don't wish that one day things like this happened to him,in fact i will be happy for him, though it's a tough way of learning.

To have frauds in one country is actually a normal thing to happen, but to have a fraud who works as an estate agent under Singapore's largest real estate company is really something unusual. I was told by lots of people that Singapore has a very strict laws and that's why it's so peaceful here and of course, i totally agree with them.However, the thing that i can't really figure out is that , how come a fraud can get a real license to become an estate agent? A fraud who cheats people's money,especially foreigners like me.And i wonder whether he learned moral before? Or that it's his natural instinct to become a fraud like he is born to be one? To bring shame to his family? And i heard that he went to church, and that's really a good joke for me. I think the reason why he go to church is because he has done too much scams and that he is hoping to be forgiven by the God? Well,if it's so, then i suggest he really needs to go often,just in case bad karma happen.

I wonder my day will get any worse,after talking to a barbarian and a fraud...I must say that i think that they should both be sent to be whipped, or at least, to be slapped until they realized their mistakes and willing to change.Human rights? Oh no...,i think a real human,with intelligence and enough education will definitely not act like a real barbarian or a fraud.So,i guess, probably both of them don't really have much ''human rights''. Probably i am a bit rough and mean in my writing, but i bet one will definitely agree with me totally if he or she has dealt with such people.