Blank

In these days of holidays, there are lots of strong surges of wanting to write something out of the mind, to express my thoughts or ideas about anything. However, it always happens that when i reach to the computer and sit correctly in front of the computer, my mind gone blank and i couldn't write a word out. Never i realized that thoughts can disappear so fast...

Have been very down for these few days, all the spaces inside the heart are full of worries, and the mind keeps wondering far off away from here. I wish to write them out, because it's so hard and difficult to bear it myself. But when i wanted to write them out, i don't know how to describe them at all. Sad? Sorrow? Anger? Painful? I couldn't find the correct words, because i know i feel more than all these words can describe.

What's wrong with me actually? Too free? Too bored? Too busy-body? Maybe i am, i am not so sure. Why is it so difficult? I couldn't stay focus, it's too complicated. And now, my mind switches off again, i don't know what to write, maybe it wishes to continue sleeping and decides to run away from reality. How ironic, the brain and heart have their own set of thoughts, totally out of my control.

Now that i am really out of words to write, i don't know what to do. How to stop? How to continue? Frozen and falling slowly there...