Drained

After 3 days of holidays spent in hometown, finally I am back to my nest again in Kuala Lumpur. Feeling extremely tired and totally exhausted today, most probably due to the long weekend and the sudden increase in use of mind concentration from 8am to 5pm with only one hour break. I guess too much holidays really spoil the brain in some ways, and of course, too much work/studies will fry the brain in some other ways too.

Stepped into my room after a long day in university at around 5 pm, i turned on my laptop and lied on my bed, didn’t have much energy left even for sitting. Went out dinner after an hour or so, I returned to my room and instantly collapsed down. My body was tired and my mind was in chaos. I couldn’t think straight, nor could I talk properly. My eyes were closing, and as the vision went blur, i know my brain was shutting down, and I fell asleep with my phone beside me. Oddly under such situation, supposedly I should have slept soundly with totally zero conscious left, but somehow I was half awake. Maybe the brain wanted to rest and forget but the heart will never tell a lie about feelings.

Woke up finally, looked at the time I realized that it was already midnight and I hadn’t showered yet. So reluctantly, I took my pajama and went into bathroom for a bath. Looking at myself in front of the mirror, I can’t believe I looked so listless, messy and into the eyes, I can feel it instantly, I knew it so well. Took off my clothes, and turned on the water heater, letting the warm water to run down from my face all the way down. It was in the middle of the night, and I hope taking a hot bath can somehow warm me up, and to rejuvenate the spirit and the inner heart. I hope it can...

It was so silent, I can hear the whooshing sound of the air-cond, and the turning clicking sound of the fan. It was somehow peaceful, somehow relaxing for me to just lie down on bed closing my eyes, with my arms up and around my head. It was really calming. Felt much better now after the hot bath, I let my mind wonder freely from anything to anywhere. Playing with my mind again, I started to enter back the world of dreams again…and yes, the heart will never lie.