Consumed

I realized it finally, he was getting out of control. The chains that used to bind him had started to weaken and becoming brittle. I knew that sooner or later he will be free from all the chains of principles that had been restraining him from doing evil things, but i never knew that it will be soon. I used to be proud of all the principles, moral values and the beliefs that had well being established in my world, and all these had become iron chains and cage to lock him up, and prevent him from going into the wrong path. Now that these chains and cage have become weak and he might just break free anytime, escaping from all the constraints and unmasking the evil side.

I am worried now, the time is nearing, and i couldn't do anything, or can i? As time passed by, my soul get consumed, and i started to lose my personality. I like the way i am, i like all the strange principles, all the beautiful values and those innocent beliefs. And now, i am about to lose them all. If he ever escapes, i will definitely lose all my identity, and sure be condemned to ever lasting guilt. I don't want to be evil, i don't want to be out of control, living like a zombie with no brain as this life is nothing but just a ticket to self pleasure through immoral and evil deeds. This is a critical moment, i am slowly being engulfed by all these influences. My mind is blurred by the inviting promises, and i couldn't be sure where i am now.

Something needed to be done, before i lose myself. I wish i can control myself, strengthen up the chains through various mind battling, to fence off all the influences. But it's more than i can do, i need help. Perhaps an angel, loving and caring guardian angel to give support to me, to fill me with love and blessing, and surely this can aid and vanish all the influences, making a clear path for me to see and think, and for sure lock up and tighten the chains so that he will never be able to escape. Yes, i need to defeat him, to seal him up for good - this evil side of me...