Bad Luck

Today,again i found myself travelling to Orchard Library. Woke up pretty early today due to my 20 minutes-faster-phone. After bathing and everything, i went out,ready to get in MRT and travel to Orchard. It seemed that there are lots of people today that actually i had to missed 2 trains due to overcrowding. Human reproduce very fast, i guess.Travelling in train is so normal now for me, cause i am so used to it. But after the incident, now everytime the train stops at that station, my heart sinks and start pumping very fast, scared ; my brain starts imagining dreadful things. I guess it has become a trauma to me now that everything related to the ''incident'' scares me.


So, i stepped foot again to this wonderful library in Orchard. Love it very much. Have been here lots of time, and found it very comfortable as a place for me to ''waste'' my time,though sometimes feel really lonely. It always will be few people waiting outside the library for it to open, and i am one of them. Then in not more than 30 minutes, people will start to flow in, looking for books ,newspaper ,magazines and so on , almost like a phenomena.


I have been having bad luck these few days. Yesterday i fell sick (not really sick actually,just running nose),and the day before my head was having a rough time battling with the questions and my heart was tigthen with all sorts of feelings, and now i am feelings moody. No idea what has striked me, but it just come like that, without any warning or sign. Not as cheerful as i used to last week,not much smiles as well. I wonder maybe the ''side-effect'' is still there, and the wound hasn't really cured completely,not without the answers to stop all the questions.Or maybe it's because my fear and worries on the forth-coming exam results. I have a really bad feeling about my results.Just to think of that can kick my smile away.


I have once been told that (actually i read about it,in Doraemon,haha) life is like a long strings, made up of 2 smaller strings wound together, which both represent good luck and bad luck and that life can't just made up of only bad moments and sure after some bad times, there will be good times.It's just like the weather, the sky can't be raining all the day, and sure after the rain, there will be sunshine,even rainbow.Maybe today is the time for my luck or ''feng shui'' to change (smilling)...