Sudden Lost Of Spirit

Feeling sick for a week and now finally recover. It was my rural placement week in Segamat, Johor. Arrived there on Monday, the beautiful scenes, the scent of palm oil trees and leaves of rubber trees somehow made me feel belonged. And yes, this is the kind of places I grown up, a rural small town, with all the trees and the wide blue sky. My mind was floating around, just like the white clouds in the sky, couldn’t stop feeling nostalgic. It’s so peaceful, so warm to just walk on the ground and let the wind refresh the body.

Recently, I have lost myself. Couldn’t be sure where my mind went, nor where my direction was. Lots of problems, with this and that, trying to find an equilibrium all the time, and sometimes I just want to run away, to play games or just to sleep soundly. My mind always gone blank, and I don’t have the spirit to do anything. I feel like just wanna to eat, sleep and play. Sometimes, it’s just me, this stupid ‘sudden lost of spirit’, the boring one…

Will it be better tomorrow? I lied on my bed and thinking again, time passed slowly, and again I have been on bed for hours. My eyelids were falling slowly, deep inside I hope it will be a beautiful day tomorrow…