My room was as messy as it was before, books here and there, papers lying everywhere, tissues at the corners...and to think that i have to move out today, i almost fainted. I didn't go to take a shower immediately, instead i started to pack up. Start with my closet first, all the clothes have to be taken out, and lots of clothes, not to mention. Found some missing pair of socks, i bet i know where they are...Looking down from my window, i saw the uncle who sell 'nasi lemak' has arrived, hence i quickly went down to get my breakfast. Low blood sugar can be a serious medical illness...lol. Bought mee instead of nasi lemak, i ate slowly, trying to enjoy the food, and the moment, and kicked all the other thoughts away.
Time for shower, i took a hot bath, washed myself, got out and lied on my bed. Feeling sleepy and tired, i guess the body has started to work out on the food, less blood to the brain and more towards the stomach. The sun has awakened, and sending waves of light into my room. Beautiful day, i supposed. Somehow, my own personal 'weather' wasn't really in a good shape, feeling down and blue, i knew what it was, but what can i do? No one will understand, and no one will be able to help either, i bet. Just have to keep it inside, let the feeling dissipates on its own...Listening to songs now, trying to cheer up the day. That's one of the reasons why i like light and easy songs, they turn around the day, switch the 'unhappy' mood to 'happy' one. Just that sometimes they are not really that efficient...Maybe it wasn't that bad, i told myself. As long as the heart still beating, i guess i should be happy, because we are still alive. Nothing to feel sad about,no?
Uhh,still have to pack up, better get moving to work and clean the room.
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