Transitional Residential Camp (Monash University)

The first weekend after the starting of my university life was actually a transitional residential camp outside the campus. The whole first week had been the orientation week, and there was nothing much to do except learning how to use the facilities.

So, we went to the transitional camp which located in a beautiful resort in Port Dickson, Negeri Sembilan. Everything looked nice and decent, the food, the resort itself, the rooms, and etc etc. Arrived there on thursday afternoon, and then it begun - the process of transitional from college to university.

Most of our hours were devoted to lectures, on health enchantment programmes, on how to deal with personal stress, or the introduction of our MBBS (Bachelor of Medicine and Bachelor of Surgery) on the assessments, the methods in which the course will be carried out, etc etc. Of course, if it was all work and no play, it made us all dull boys. So, there were some games, some outdoor activities such as jungle trekking. Every morning, there would be morning exercises for us to choose, either yoga or jogging and which i had attended once, and the second time, i overslept, hahaha.

Overall, the camp was a good one, at least i got to know some friends, and some names during this 3 days 2 nights stay, better than not knowing who he/she is, after all we are in the same batch. But still, if i got the chance to choose, probably i wouldn't have joined, not because the camp wasn't fun, but there are things and people which are more important for me, especially when it comes to the people you miss and love so much...

(The comfortable living room and bedroom in the resort)

(The sunset views, from the light house)

New Chapter

After 2 weeks of holidays, I finally have to leave my home and be ready to start another chapter of my life. It’s the critical time for my first step into the university, being an undergraduate, as a medical student and my future depends on this step. Packed up everything again and having the experience of moving and packing for so many times, it seemed so easy for me, not much hard feelings. Maybe it’s a good sign, to show that I am ready, or maybe I just want to start soon, and don’t really wanna to trap at home. The only worries I have might be regarding some adaptation problems, which I believe I will have.

Arrived there, things are sort of different from what I have expected or what I have experienced before. I moved into a condominium who has 7 people including me, and I don’t even know their names except for my roommates and that’s something really weird, at least for me. Also, knowing that now I have a roommate who is in the same course as me, I felt a bit uncomfortable as there will be not much privacy, since I always believe I am different from the others. So, the same procedures, unpacked everything, and here I am, my new ‘home’…

The first night was strange, I felt lonely. All new faces, which every face might somehow turn out to be a familiar face in the future. Everything seemed so unpredicted for a moment, I don’t know what lies ahead. My head was swirling with all sorts of thoughs. Even with thoughts buzzing my head, there was something inside my heart which I can’t help to control. I felt the need to be there, to hear the voices, or at least to receive some messages, to share my feelings, and to have someone with me spiritually. I guess, maybe this is how it feels, to be missing someone you love. It’s hurting but at the same time, it’s sweet…

It was a difficult night to fall asleep, I really felt the need to hug, to have, to feel. Maybe that’s the power of love…

Happy Valentine's Day

(P/S: play the music 'Earth Tune (love)' in the playlist below before you start reading.)

There are lots of special occasions in our lives cerebrating loves as main theme, and among all these days, Valentine's Day is one of the most important days because it's the day where the world most powerful magic potion is fully saturated in the air, suffocated everyone with the magical vapour. For those who are in love and be able to be with their loved ones, it's a wonderful day; for those who are in love and not be able to be with their loved ones, the magical vapour is killing them like deadly poison targeting their hearts ; and for those who are not in loved and alone, Valentine's Day makes them looked even more miserable, being engulfed by loneliness and trapped in clouds of sadness, creating pain all over their bodies.

It seems like Valentine's Day is creating more sadness than happiness, so why are we celebrating it then? What's the point to celebrate Valentine's Day if all it brings is nothing but sorrow? Perhaps, from a point of view, it seems correct. But the truth is, it's just a faulty logic. Valentine's Day is supposingly to be a happy, lovely day, a day for us to share the joys for the existence of loves in our lives. It isn't a must for our loved ones to be by our sides, nor even if you are single, you are not 'qualified' to celebrate Valentine. It's a day of love, regardless you are single or alone, as long as there's love around you, as long as you know there's someone out there thinking of you, or the worst, you have nobody, but to know that you are still alive, and that you still can give out love to the others or yourself, then you are part of Valentine's Day.

Don't be beaten down by loneliness, be strong and conquer the day with loves. We have often misunderstood that if there's nobody else to love us, then we are pathetic, and this kind of wrong assumption, is what making us feeling down. The truth about love is that, it's not something that should be received only, it's something that to be given as well. Couldn't be loved isn't something to feel sad about, but unable to give out loves, is something really pathetic. To love, is also a blessing, a kind of happiness.

Hence, let's celebrate today with loves in your hearts, not just money in your pocket. Love is in the air...

''It's Valentine's Day, i know something is missing there and my day is incomplete and empty. But to think again, i am happy, happy to have it, even if i couldn't see it, but it's there, in our hearts. I have gotten the best present ever, and it's always there, and i am thankful. I found it, and its name is love...''

Chinese New Year's Days

It's Chinese New Year, supposingly it's happy hours all the day, but somehow it's very different. It's very silence here, not much noises, nothing much to do either. Didn't go out, stay at home all the time, gamble with siblings. and watch some tv programmes. Something's missing...

So, as usual i took a nap in the afternoon, and being woke up by a songs broadcasted by the tv channel. It was a nice song, and i realized it was a concert. It was the Nobel Peace Prize 2007 Concert. The main theme of 2007 for Nobel Peace Prize was global warming (if anyone has watched An Inconvenient Truth.) Since it's very hard to find the songs that match one's taste, so i decided to find and download some of the songs which i found can be used to describe my feelings now. So, put up your earphone and feel the moods of the songs.

A strange greyish blue cloud surrounded me, suffocated me with unpleasant feelings, made me feeling down and bored...

But anyway, it's Chinese New Year, be happy, be cheerful, and be joyful. It's a beautiful day after all...

Happy Chinese New Year 2008 : Rat Invasion

At last, it's the 30th of the last month in lunar calendar, and tomorrow's the new year for Chinese. Today is an important day, as all the family members will gather and have a dinner together, to show unity and for all the feeling of missing for family, this is the time where all the family members sit down and have a scrumptious dinner, all the joys and laughters floating in the air, fill up the whole atmosphere...

So, i guess it's time to wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year, Gong Xi Fa Chai, Xin Xiang Shi Cheng, Wan Shi Lu Yi, Fu Xing Gao Zao, Nian Nian You Yu, and of course Hong Pau Na Lai, haha.

祝 : 大家

新年快乐

恭喜发财

心想事成

万事如意

福星高照

年年有余

红包拿来

My Lawn

Chinese New Year is coming soon, so yesterday we were told to clean the lawn, trim the flowers, mow the grass and etc etc. It's been so long since i worked in the lawn, never really have paid attention to all the flowers and tree around, and when i looked close to them, they have really grown up, big and tall. Branching here and there, up and down the walls, with lots of flowers. Look very messy but beautiful.

So, basically we just cut off the unwanted branches, and tried to make them look more tidy and neat in a sense, but somehow when we finished our work, we realized that the trees and flowers had no more branches left, and all the flowers were gone. Let's hope we didn't kill them...

Of course, i took some of the branches and planted them on the ground, hoping that they will grow up. Not really sure if they can survive, some may, some may not, well i will just hope for the best. It was a strange feeling to walk on the lawn again, a sense of belonging emerged from the bottom of my heart, making me felt sort of warm and happy. There were lots of memories here, every plant, every tree, every flower and even the grass were planted by me, or at least i had helped last time, when i was still a child. And now, to return back, and be able to examine them in close and knowing that they had grown up beautifully, i got certain feelings of satisfaction. These are the ones that truly belonged to me, in a way. Looking at how gorgeous they have become, so i couldn't control myself and took some pictures of them, and all these served as some sort of certifications of my efforts, and how proud i am for them...

The sky was grey, and it was so beautiful to look at the lawn, and how the flowers and leaves danced with the rhythms of the wind, and i was smiling. This is my lawn...

Still Alive

It's been quite a long time since i slept in the train, even the schedule has changed. Arrived very early today, at about 6 am. Went to the toilet, and then took a taxi and went straight home. My hair was extremely messy, and with the taxi driver speeding at 120 kph, couldn't really say that i wasn't flying without wings. Feeling dizzy again, most probably low blood sugar level, or maybe the driver's fault. Anyway, arrived at my apartment in like 15 minutes, i paid and went inside.

My room was as messy as it was before, books here and there, papers lying everywhere, tissues at the corners...and to think that i have to move out today, i almost fainted. I didn't go to take a shower immediately, instead i started to pack up. Start with my closet first, all the clothes have to be taken out, and lots of clothes, not to mention. Found some missing pair of socks, i bet i know where they are...Looking down from my window, i saw the uncle who sell 'nasi lemak' has arrived, hence i quickly went down to get my breakfast. Low blood sugar can be a serious medical illness...lol. Bought mee instead of nasi lemak, i ate slowly, trying to enjoy the food, and the moment, and kicked all the other thoughts away.

Time for shower, i took a hot bath, washed myself, got out and lied on my bed. Feeling sleepy and tired, i guess the body has started to work out on the food, less blood to the brain and more towards the stomach. The sun has awakened, and sending waves of light into my room. Beautiful day, i supposed. Somehow, my own personal 'weather' wasn't really in a good shape, feeling down and blue, i knew what it was, but what can i do? No one will understand, and no one will be able to help either, i bet. Just have to keep it inside, let the feeling dissipates on its own...

Listening to songs now, trying to cheer up the day. That's one of the reasons why i like light and easy songs, they turn around the day, switch the 'unhappy' mood to 'happy' one. Just that sometimes they are not really that efficient...Maybe it wasn't that bad, i told myself. As long as the heart still beating, i guess i should be happy, because we are still alive. Nothing to feel sad about,no?

Uhh,still have to pack up, better get moving to work and clean the room.