Last Day of Holidays

So, today is the last day of my holidays, woke up pretty early, at about 5sth am, by one of the worst nightmares i had.Were trying to get back to sleep after that, but all the efforts were in vain, let's just hope it will not come true...At about 7 am, after all the washing and cleaning, went out with family and grandpa for breakfast outside, at an Indian stall just right in front of the large beautiful oil palm tree estate nearby. It's a beautiful morning, with some fog covering the view, and rays of light penetrating through the light blue sky, while the birds were chipping and singing songs so cheerfully. A great day, i supposed...except of the nightmare part.

Back from breakfast, saw my dog, evil thought came in,hehe. I took the tissue paper which i used to clean my lips after breakfast, and i tied it up on my dog's tail and enjoyed seeing my dog turn round and round, trying to get the tissue paper off. Finally,she was able to take it off, and tore it to pieces(the dog's inner thought :I gotcha, haha, time to revenge, i want to tear you to pieces for disturbing my tail,arg...). Wahaha, it was so fun, and i am so evil...LOL. Emm, i guess i have to start packing, though not much, just the bag and the laptop. And to think clearly, i have done nothing during this holidays, i didn't even touch the notes or the books. Was playing games, sleeping, eating...and wasting time. Not very productive, didn't even try to practice my driving skills (it's not bad, but practice makes the master). But to think back, it's holidays after all, if one were supposed to be working during holidays, then it shouldn't be called holidays,no? Well, anyway i think i have wasted lots of time, after all, i am still lagging behind in my studies. And, i still have some research to be done before Tuesday, but well i think i can finish it in one hour time.Internet is really such a useful tool...haha.

The messed up feeling needed to be fixed before the university starts or else i will definitely not be able to concentrate on studies (again). Really need to start to get ready and mentally prepared, leave all the messed up feelings behind and start the journey again. Really wish i have an Angel with me, that can always be my listener with patient and guidance; that will always stand by me with love and cares; that may fuse with me as one with no secret and barrier between...Oh, it's just another dream, perhaps...Some sort of ''imaginary friend'' like little kid used to have, and i want an ''imaginary Angel'', getting childish?Or just being ignorant? Ha, just a dream?

Ok, enough of that. Back to reality now, there's nothing to feel bad about, look at the birds, singing so happily even though they have nothing but a small nest. And i have everything now, family, lover, friends...just need to learn how to appreciate and preserve it, and make it lasts, agree?

* smiles : )